Starters.

Hey,

you,

Yeah!

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I like Tomoe as much as I like other female characters, but the only thing that strikes me more is that of her impassive expression that she carries twenty-four seven.

That is why I picture her as a doll in my eyes.

The picture above is a request that was asked of me. I should ask for a pay, my pens aren't unlimited. Well, if only I could wish for that to happen.

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Mai-Hime SS are put on a hold a week, I have to sort out my new week's schedule. I don't want yet another year of bad time management, I hate it when things go haywire.

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My system has gone extreme. I state so for I take more than my usual 30 minutes of 'trying-to-go-to-sleep' state to actually fall asleep. I'm taking an hour to do so, and I'm not getting enough sleep!

Aki says that it's the music I listen to before I hit bed. I just say that I think to much before I go to sleep.

Electronic Music and Massive amounts of Brain power.

Definitely a bad mix.

I need to find my classical CDs.

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The crossover SS of Mai-Hime and The IDOLM@STER is down in draft form! I'm ecstatic.

The names stated below will appear as main characters in the crossover, there is no order in the list:

Kuga Natsuki, Fujino Shizuru, Tokiha Mai, Kanzaki Reito, Kisaragi Chihaya, Hagiwara Yukiho, Hoshii Miki, Shijou Takane and Kikuchi Makoto.

There will be the special use of my favourite three girl band, Perfume, and stunning Nico Nico Douga MAD art director WakamuraP.

The setting of the crossover SS will be held in the real world of metropolitan Japan and Production 797 is willingly to help in to file in the information from Japan to make this crossover story a mix of reality and fiction. I am so glad Aki is still on vacation.

The characters from the worlds of Mai-Hime/Otome will be taken off from the anime Mai-Hime. The characters from the world of The IDOLM@STER will be taken off from both the anime Xenoglossia and the game play of Project IM@S.

With concern to the the characters from The IDOLM@STER, the personalities of Yukiho, Chihaya, Makoto will be a mix from both the anime and the game play. Miki and Takane, will be taken off the game play. So that overall means that the characters are OOC.

Well, that about it for the crossover SS.

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I was offered to eat and drink, but realising that I was kind of eating off the person, I declined politely. However, things persisted and I ended up eating a bun and drinking hot tea.

And I felt bad doing that.

Sometimes, just accept humbly. Things end up like that anyway, I had to learn that the long way. However, now and then, it depends on the situation your in. For some people, no means no, and that is just the end of it.

Too bad.

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Then again,

Cheers!

Companion.

Perfect star,

Perfect style.

Super Music Maker.

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Production 797*J-Crusader presents 'Companion. ~Tales of the Orion~'

It sounds cheesy, but Aki insisted that I put in the last part, since it does describe the whole story. I agree with her.

'Companion' for short, debuts today in the Mai-Hime category on Fanfiction. I was itching to get it posted up, for no rhyme or reason, I just had the itch to sense something was tingling at my fingers to do so.

It must be a good day.



The above sketches compliment the story, however, the outfits given to the two are not the ones as described in the story, these were the first of the drafts I did for them.

Well, 'Companion' aside. It seems that I am actually very happy today, since I made a double posting on fanfiction. 'Paper doll' comes in second.

'Paper doll' chapter 14 is out, everyone that has been awaiting on how Natsuki will tell her past, it is in this chapter that the hint is given. A huge hint that is, I am sure no one will miss it.

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I have a plan, a plan that I usually don't do, since I am very disturbed by it somehow. However, somehow, this time, I really plan to do one even how uncomfortable I may feel.

I plan to write a crossover story.

I am insane, but I want to give it a shot.

The worlds I plan to over cross are the worlds of Mai-Hime/Otome (that's not really a surprise) and the world of The IDOLM@STER. Now that's a surprise. I have the tendency to bring the things I have a liking for together. That simply means I crave to write something from The IDOLM@STER.

I have an addiction to it. Ugh.

It also seems that I cannot leave out my favourite pairing of Shizuru and Natsuki from my works. They are a pair I just cannot stand to put aside. Now I wonder how indulged I am in the world of Mai-Hime/Otome.

I deviate once again, my apologies.

The crossover would, of course, include the wonderful characters like of Shizuru, Natsuki and Mai from the worlds of Mai-Hime/Otome, and not forgetting the stunning characters like of Chihaya, Yukiho and Miki from the world of The IDOLM@STER.

Just a note: There will be no cross pairings (if anyone is worried about that)! That's confirmed as a no! Shizuru stays with Natsuki and that is final!

Oh well, I can't wait to get my hands on pen and paper.

I hope that those that read my usual Mai-Hime stories would give a peek at this story when it is uploaded. I don't mind if no one reads it, I am happy just writing it.

I can't wait to starting drafting, however I am terrified of getting into a nagging lecture from Aki of why I can't finish my other stories first before moving to another.

Time management is essential, that is what she tells me.

I sigh.

That is true.

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'Wind is free.'

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Then again,

Cheers!

Practition.

Hear me,

Watch me,

Feel me.

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This is described as how rushed and frightened I am. I cannot precisely explain how I am feeling at the moment, but all I know is that my strokes in a illustration show how I am feeling.

The above is not complete. However, oh well, I signed it.

I am not really in the mood to pen down anything.

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I watched 'Idolmaster: Xenoglossia' not long ago, well actually quite long ago. Since it came out in around the year 2006 to 2007 if I am correct, forgive me if I am wrong. It is a Sunrise Studio production, so it caught my eye like how it caught my attention to the Mai-Hime productions.

I didn't have a great liking to it towards the end, well actually in the middle, since it involved girls really liking a robot. Furthermore the 'like' isn't just like, but the 'like-like', if one can grasp my point.

I am sorry, but I just cannot take it when someone falls in love with a gigantic robot and calls it their boyfriend.

Pardon my distaste.

Coming back, then why in the first place did I even bring up 'Idolmaster: Xenoglossia'. Well, simple to the fact, is that I have now quite an addiction to the game THE iDOLM@STER, or the simple term Project IM@S. The two, being it the game and the animation share the same characters, but the story is completely different.

I had thought that the animation would be the same as the game, but I then found out that they were two different worlds.

Then from now, I will go on rambling, mind me, you can skip this if you must:

Being it the game or the animation, I still have the same liking for Yukiho and Chihaya, despite Chihaya being very different in the animation. Yukiho does not really change whether be it in the animation or in the game play, she is still the innocent, yet hardworking girl. Chihaya on the other hand, in the animation is the robot obsessed girl that wants to pilot her first robot again. While in the game play, she is mature, cool and serious vocalist as she would call herself instead of the title of an idol.

They are in different worlds, but the two in both the animation and the game is wonderful despite anything. That makes me get glued to playing THE iDOLM@STER and watching the animation, just that the personality of the characters being obsessed with robots just ticks me off.

The world is unfair, live it.

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I am rambling on, and I will not stop, since I have the urge to let off some steam that I have been keeping within me.

I hate to say it, but I must.

I am writing now because I am jealous. Jealous of what? I am not really sure too. However, I know I now that the main emotion I am feeling within the whirl of feelings is jealousy.

Lil'nutcase, Major and A.K. , they would know why I am feeling like this. Or do they really? Ah, that I also don't even now.

I was thinking, much to say that thinking is bad for me. Suddenly a particular scenario which happened about two and half years back played out in my mind. I was shocked at first that I forced my eyes opened to clear my head, but then again, it came back right after I closed my eyes.

I still remembered that I should have slung her arm around my shoulder, instead of carrying her on my back. Furthermore, I should have just left her to cry then to tell her to stop crying while wiping her tears off. Lastly, I should have just said nothing then something like:

'Everything is going to be alright.'

I realised I sounded like some cheesy person, hoping that the sky would fall because of who I am and what I am doing.

Ugh, I am hopeless.

Now when I think about what I did to her then, it seems that now everything is going to be alright for her. She indeed has someone else that can say that to her. Part of me happily says that I am happy for her. Then again, the other half says I am jealous, not of her, but of...

I think that this it is enough. Nothing is going to happen if I still keep on going and complaining.

Life co-exists with emotions, without them, then what are we?

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Major and I spent an evening together. It happened after we decided to part from the celebration that was being held in our old school. I was suppose to take Major out to eat ice cream, but 'look at the time' and I proposed that she just drop by my place to eat some ice cream I had in the fridge.

We walked out of the school together, and it was somewhere along the time where she was talking about walking in her heels and how her feet were sore from standing in them for so long during the celebration. As we walked towards the bus stop down the road, she talked about forgetting to inform someone about her leave from the celebration.

I said about just giving the person a call, she said she'll just pass a text. From that, I had no idea how she found out about my secret, like lil'nutcase, she found out about it by herself and she simply just guessed it like in a snap of my fingers.

I was scared and uneasy about her finding about it. However, I realised she would be one that would have easily found out sooner or later without me even telling her or giving her hints.

Later on the train to my place, she told me how she thought about my behaviour and she heard my end in return. What I said went somewhat like this,

'For example, Terry will always stay as Terry. The personality in fact stays the same, whether be it boy or girl.'

*(My mindset here is co-linked to how Shizuru thought in the Mai-Hime SS 'Innocent Starters' chapter 2, refer to the story if one must.)

Major just nodded on silently as I explained myself,

'Hence I will love Terry despite he/she being a boy or girl. It is the person I am attracted to and not the gender.'

I mused,

'Does that make me different from what other people in the society think?'

It escalated into something more profound, so I won't delve to much in the conversation we had much later.

As the days passed, I caught myself wondering, when she, not Major, but someone else told me this:

'Who ever said that a female is a female and a male a male. Who ever classified that? A female can actually be a male and a male a female, right?. However, the world it is today say that cannot be true because of what happened in the past that presented itself to the future. Hence, now, a female is female and a male a male.'

I looked at her and she smiled, ruffling my hair,

'I am not making any sense am I?'

I lowered my head and stared at my food, I kept quiet and soon pulled myself out of my reverie,

'You actually are making sense.'

The past shapes the present, the present shapes the future. What makes us today, is what had happened in the past. How we (I) think now is what people have thought in the past.

Aren't I partially correct?

The world was made the world is it now, from the previous things and thoughts that were made, practised, written and recorded in history.

That is what makes mindsets in society similar and different.

That is what made me different.

However it is, after all, me. My mindset, the way I think and feel is different form the norm, but, it is still me.

I am J-Crusader.

I am.

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Then again,

Cheers!