RE: 13.

Most of all,

Can you see?

Your mother's love?

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Something for all, something for nothing, something for everyone to see; innocence is nothing but something you cannot grasp. Even though how young you maybe, it is something even one can't catch properly.

For those who have passed on, this is for you.



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I ramble, I think I have been doing as such. On and on, on the same topic, that I realise that I should once in a while leave the safety of my comfort zone and venture out into the unknown that I always wanted to go in to.

I think I'll try something different now on.

To start off, I think I should be trying something like:

'I want a PS3! Goddammit!'

Well, that was quite a kick off, since I've been wanting to scream that out ever since finding out that Final Fantasy versus XIII will only be on PS3. The new series of Fabula Nova Crystallis comes FF XIII and FFversus XIII on PS3 and FFagitoXIII on PSP. At least my older sibling has a PSP, or it will be the end of me.

I'm sure all Final Fantasy fans out there are dying for it to come out. I on the other hand, I'm dying to see who in the world the last two characters are. As usual, Square Enix, doesn't disappoint its audience.

And for me, as usual, I'm already drawn to its soundtrack.

I really look forward to it.

Apart from FFXIII, lately I've been digging myself into Dissidia than I thought I would be. It was quite different, since I found myself 'in-action' rather than in the usual 'command' play. It is quite a refresher, since I can find myself drifting off from work to play.

It is different from my usual, but I much like it.

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I've been sick, 24-7, and I feel like shit.

Ugh.

That is shit.

The last post of 'Concerto' was mostly centered on a review and I find myself almost wanting to write another post centered on another intriguing review. Nonetheless, I think I'll be making myself much more depressed than I already am.

Ah, but it is life; live it.

On to another thing shall we?

'Innocent starters' the third chapter summer will be out soon, since summer for me is almost over and it is time I put up a good chapter for everyone.

I planned another one shot, and I was finding a good date to release it, however, I found out that a lot of my readers recently, have taken a liking to read Natsuki as the original character she is than someone much more OOC.

Hence, I reconsidered uploading this particular new one-shot and save it somewhere else. I don't want to upset my readers, much more than to disappoint them.

'Paper doll' the last chapter of the second arc will be released on the 17th of September, which is of tomorrow. Look out for it as it reveals who will be next one to tell the tale of Natsuki and Shizuru.

For all those supporting 'Paper doll', I cannot help but say how happy I am to make it so far. I, myself, is impressed that I was able to write about nineteen chapters and not lose sight of it.

I must return to 'Akeome'. After all, it is the one that pushed me to write more of Mai-Hime SS.

Thank you for all the hard work.

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Someone wanted me to write something that happened in my daily life, well so, because a blog is much like a tell one about what happened in a day. So as requested, I will. (Very much so, since I have nothing much to write nowadays.)

A normal day for me, will be much like this:

Wake up at 7:30, if my class doesn't start at 8:00. Yank a few clothes off my rack, change and wash up; incredibly in five minutes. Chomp my way through cereal while I read the papers. Hit the road after fifteen minutes max. of eating breakfast and reach the station just on time to take the express train to class.

Class time varies, since I have lectures and tutorials with the weirdest timing; I can't blame art though. Lunch time is stuffing my face full with whatever I can afford at the canteen. Chug my drink while on the way back to class and survive all the way 'till end of the day.

Class ends and I take the rush hour train back, finding myself all sweaty, somehow, when I make it back home. Take a bath, eat and I will sit in front of my PC and do something worth doing. In the end, I will eventually find myself reading, writing, or doing little art pieces, before I hit bed.

That time, is usually at around 12 to 2, if I don't find my hands on my elder's game console.

Break periods and Holidays, I think I find myself much of a slob:

Wake up at 9 or sometimes even 12, depends on the night before. Take my time to eat, walk around and find myself watching a movie on the couch. Then again, I'll somehow end up at my table doing sketches or simply trying to get something to write or surf about on the net.

I can sit about for the whole day and just sit.

Ugh.

Sit until dinner and the same thing happens. However, if I feel a lot more energetic, I will find myself doing a workout, just to kill the boredom that wraps my body.

That's about it.

I realise that I don't have a life. Much really.

Well, it changes, when I have my friends making me go out with them. That is something different, but that's for another day, for another request.

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I happen to chance upon a story on FF and I am wowed by the fact that it is indeed a very interesting story. Well, it has been published quite a time back and I realised that I could somehow miss the fact about it.

'Monster' by ShayP is wonderfully well written, a combination of good quantity and quality. What more can I say, that she has written a whole new story for those two that I sometimes I find myself speechless.

Not a reviewer, much to say, I can't write a decent one. Hence so, I recommend her work, but I think I am well-aware that a lot of Mai-Hime SS readers have already read her on-going work.

Indeed, I am lagging behind.

Oh well.

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I planned with Major, that we will meet sometime this week, just to see each other after quite sometime. I realised that I heard the wrong date and thought it was early this week, to find that it was to the end of the week then shall we meet up.

I checked my diary and realised that it clashed with another date I had set up with A.K and Lala. I snickered, much to find that A.K would be in for the surprise of his life upon finding Major joining the both of them.

Oh well, the more the merrier.

The more the enjoyment.

The more the unlikely of the unlikely trio of us can get.

It was then, I remembered that Major had taken a photo with me and Lala, not to far back when I was still somehow alive with the both of them. Here it is:



I'm lazy, one can say.

Well, all I hope that I can take another with all three of them together. This time, maybe I won't feel as dead as I felt the last time.

For my dear friends, you are my last friends.

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Then again,

Cheers!

Concerto.

My passport

to everywhere

but you.

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*I haven't done anything here for a long time and I think it will be for the best if I gave everyone a long post to read; to catch up with what exactly has been happening to my writing, the reviews, the reviewers and certainly some illustrations/sketches I would to share with readers and all. (If blogger doesn't fault on me like always)

Written especially to misachi, who always tells me to update this site.

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First things first, to kill something that I have been wanting to do for a long time. I had planned to do an illustration for 'To the Ends of the Galaxy' ever since Cyberano had finished uploading on FF.net. However, with alot of things happening here and then, around and within me, I never had to chance to do up a decent illustration that would fit what I have thought about the SS.

Yet, seemingly, I made it through that little rough phase of mine and did up an illustration for Cyberano. The below link is to where the final product that Cyberno will use as the cover page for 'To the ends of the Galaxy' pdf format of his Macross Frontier SS.

http://j-crusader.deviantart.com/art/To-the-Ends-of-the-Galaxy-132844712

Those up for some Sheryl and Ranka fun, feel free to head down to FF.net to check it out.

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Onward to Mai-Hime shall we?

To start off with something exciting:

'Paper doll' had kicked off with the first 10 chapters of the Kyoto arc and now followed by the intriguing chapters of the Ise arc. With the second arc coming to a near end, the third arc will be promptly follow the 20th chapter of the second arc.

With Shizuru and Natsuki having their chance to tell their tale within the two arcs, who will be the special one that will tell the tale of this whole fiasco?

That is something everyone will have to guess and certainly wait for what is in store in this twisted story.

Apart from 'Paper doll', 'No title' and 'Innoncent starters' will have their following chapters uploaded as soon as my work load has given off. The much awaited results of the poll will be finalised, that means those who haven't voted for your favourite Mai-Hime one-shot, you have little time to do so!

Judging from what I have now, I say, I am quite surprised by what the readers like.

'Companion' chapter 5, will be put on hold with 'Perfume Jukebox remix' for the moment. Maybe I should do a poll on which story I should be writing on, since I can't seem to decide.

Pardon my indeciveness; I apologise.

A new one-shot is planned along side the release of 'And I was the concierge.' However, I think that would be put on a hold with everything, since the final chapters of the second arc of 'Paper doll' is making me nervous.

I'm in distaste; right beside an awfull dilemma.

Ugh.

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I've uploaded 'Night Flight', a new one-shot as part of the Mai-Hime one-shot series and I say that I am impressed by the amount of reviews I received saying that it could be part of the Mile High Club. I was struck at first since I had no clue of what in the world was Mile High Club. I checked it out since I kept on reading the same words over and over again in reviews and I realised what the club was.

Geez.

It makes me sound as if I have experienced it first hand on a flight.

I haven't and I swear that I'm still innocent!

I sleep like a log on flights and I only wake when the food arrives. I hate the turbulence in the air, and I wonder why I like the wind as much as I like sailing; that's seemingly the weird part of me.

Aside from the very matured theme in 'Night Flight', I've had my mind on a particular review that was written for 'No Title'. It wasn't like any normal review, it was seemingly a very good review that rendered me speechless for a good minute or two, before I could get my mind functioning on replying this reviewer.

From a fellow FF.net user, anonymous-n-faceless wrote a review that made me realise a very huge flaw in my writings, and I am beginning to feel restless.

He/She wrote and I quote from the review:

'Sometimes it irks me that you have to completely alter Natsuki's appearance into something that resembles a male. Altering heights are one thing but tweaking to the point where she she gets mistaken for another gender? At this point it just stops becoming Natsuki LOL. You have no problem keeping Shizuru in her feminine form and while I understand that Natsuki does ride a motorcycle, she's still very feminine.'

At this point, I personally get irked. I continue quoting,

'I don't know if I could read any more of your stories because you are changing one of my favorite characters into something I don't recognize anymore.'

At that I realised that it really hurt. Then again, critism makes everyone stronger, whether you want to embrace or not. I was stunned as I said and I replied earnestly and apologised profusely to He/She that I had not meant to butcher up Natsuki into someone she hardly recognised as Natsuki.

For that and to anyone that agrees so, I am really really, terribly sorry.

This is my reason:

I had already written 'No Title' to match Natsuki's masculine side than to her feminine side. In 'No Title', it hits hard on Natsuki's and Shizuru's personalties seemingly because, everything in this one-shot is completely set in an Alternate Universe where the characters are OOC. Not only that, for Shizuru in this one-shot is new to the world and everything that embraces her and Natsuki.

That was the underlying problem to 'No Title', but if I were to changed it, then 'No Title' wouldn't be the story I wanted it to be.

I reflected on the review again and I realised that He/She said 'Sometimes it irks me that you have to completely alter Natsuki's appearance...'

I was completely baffled, seemingly so, since it implied that I do that to my other stories too.

Do I?

I perfectly understand it if was for 'No Title' but for the following:

Phantasm Finality.

Photos of only you.

No red.

No limitations.

Paper doll.

Akeome the longest battle.

More than Fine.

To be continued.

Innocent starters.

Companion.

Night Flight.

You, all, have to tell me! I hate to say it, but now, I am really terrified to write anything and anymore. Since I don't like to butcher and turn Natsuki and Shizuru into something out of the world and into someone unrecognisable.

Using OOC...Shouldn't we all have eyes to look out for that too?

It scares me, very much so.

It does.

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I was moved from reading reviews to reviewers and their conversations they have with me. I get reviewers talking to me over chat and two reviewers, I realised, love to have their way with me.

I'm not complaining, I certainly enjoy the entertainment they give me. Indeed.

One shares with me her moments of life; how she chases to be in a relationship and seemingly in every possible way gives me as much amusement to make me laugh in response. Dry or not.

The other however, calls me an adorable cute grunting fuzzy wuzzy plushie lion and teases me endlessly that at the end of the conversation, my face is burning in embarassment and I lose in scoring any points to tease back.

It relieves a great load of stress and tension, all just for some attention.

For that, I am grateful to have reviewers that support me in the most unique ways.

To Rachelle and Chloe,

You make my day, in the uncanniest ways.

Thank you.

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Sometimes we compare what we have experienced to something that we have not experienced it. Sometimes, we pick on people and categorise them into assorted groups for the majority of us think how these things are suppose to be. Sometimes, We assume and presume that things are like that for what we see, hear and conclude from. Sometimes we imagine that everything is just facts blinded by hearsay, that is blown along by the passing wind.

Sometimes we don't realise, that while we think and act so, that we are crushing views from true sight. Sometimes we do not understand that we are not like manufactured cans in a factory line. Sometimes, we don't realise that every one of us is unique and different, very much different even if we think and act in manners alike.

Sometimes we just can't accept the fact that we are wrong.

Somtimes times we just can't say that there is no 'we', for there is really no 'we'.

There is only I.

And sometimes I wonder why things are meant to be.

Sometimes why I act this way.

Sometimes; don't you?

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Then again,

Cheers!